There are those I aim to please. Those I want to be proud of. Parents, friends and peers. Those I love and I crave their acceptance, but no matter what I do, or how hard I try it never happens. They continue to belittle me and make fun of me. I’ll never be good enough for them. I don’t see that changing. They never see me, or the work I do to improve myself.
I wonder what it would be like to move past it. Accept them, as they are. They will never change. The things they say and do will always be hurtful and cruel. Accept that they'll never be proud of me. So why invest my time and energy into that? It doesn’t serve me to draw from a dry well. I am not being nourished by it. There is no growth in this.
By accepting this. I take away your power over me. I take away your power to hurt me. I don’t need it anymore. I will continue to grow, and share kindness with others. Find happiness in the company of those who see me and inspire kindness. Those who want me to share space, value my ideas and life experience.
I don’t have that with you. You’ll always be cruel and mean for sport. I accept that about you, your opinions matter little to me.
I love you but I decided that I don’t like you.
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